New Article at the Curator
My newest article was published today. Have a look.
The Lifeblood That Drives the Dreams of Champions
Kevin Gosa
Finding culture in the most unlikely places.
excuse you! i heard him snip
after my failure to deliver
train-car-hip-check-box-out
gave away last open seat
and i left myself that moment
to watch me unleash
rabid explicatives blushing
even Carlin’s dead cheeks
and squeal how not one
fucking guy has yet
lifted lazy ass from subway
bench and offered my bulge-
bellied wife respite for
wearied human-making bones
as train cars herk and jerk
bride and baby like raggedy
mom and ann/andy (its
gender remains mystery until
midwife waves salts
under swooned noses)
while tons of recent gym time
and tiny elements of surprise
suggest i beat propriety
into men unregenerate and
hand out whoopings
aloof fathers should’ve
long ago for chivalry’s
sake yet instead sat
fattened keesters on couches
scotch and seven in left
cigar in other hand and watched
Archie verbalize Edith and laughed
through chauvi-misogynistic teeth
with little regard for the day
their kids would sit and stare
at mine still scrunched in utero
while great-with-child legs labor
to hold balance round curves
and i now back in body see
i’ve done no such things
maybe out of fear or
christian restraint or
gleams in lover’s eyes
begging me don’t
My newest article was published today. Have a look.
The Lifeblood That Drives the Dreams of Champions
Kevin Gosa
Finding culture in the most unlikely places.
it never ends now the
music in my head an
ostinato senza cesura
drowns out
me
and epiphany so my existence
persists in that twilight where
desires seek satiation and
i no longer know what wait
means as i am overrun
by access and wishes granted
and touch or tap or slide
a single finger to have
what for that moment i
think i lack though all
i need is stillness and
a silent mind or a nothing
between just one crossfade
between stop and play
when plastic sounds mean
a cassette thumbed to b-side
is all that is and it makes me
pause
and in those seconds
hear my own song which
betrays an unquenched longing
for limitation as gift
which gives me me again
when whims see not limits
cravings pursue satisfaction
by tireless shuffling for
perfect quaffs which have not
come and will not until
i awake to remember that
what is next is vaporous if
i pass over what is here
and cannot find peace in
hearing a tape deck click
So, it’s true that there has been a lack of poetry up on the site these days. But it’s not for a lack of writing. Today marks the launch of a new online magazine, The Curator (a pulication of International Arts Movement), for which I am a contributing editor.
My first piece is about rock and roll, changing the world, and the great Les Paul.
Add it to your RSS. It promises to be always be a worthwhile read.
i wish i would read the new yorker
on the subway and appear as smart and
savvy as she next to me from whom
i hide these words as i write
(tilting my notebook leftward
with an ever-increasing incline
forcing pen ink to defy
gravity to stick to the page)
as i write
about her and her reading habits and savviness
while a homeless man delivers his verse
in the land of the blind
In the land of the blind
no one sees the forest for the trees
so their all cut down in the name of safety
delivers his verse with all the panache
of a homeless man
In the land of the blind
a haystacked needle pricks before its found
and that fleshy pound might be two or three
of a homeless man singing
poems on a subway car
In the land of the blind
people still get on their knees to worship their celebrities
and broken eyes stare at tvs anyway
and i wonder if my verse
In the land of the blind
stars go ungazed; plays unplayed and
trails will forever be unblazed
if my verse will one day be read
In the land of the blind
crooked and straight seem the same and
every leader leads mankind in vain
be read by the smart and savvy
In the land of the blind
every cry for help is words and everyone
is unsure if the suffering they heard is true
or heard by another young stealth poet
as i beg
But in the land of sight
these things are plain and we all see who is lame
and hear me asking “brother, spare some change?”
exiled from your brethren
and your maker by
those who hate your voice
i almost didn’t find you this time
banished there to rusted
desolation under dying tree
a single leaf falling
brings no life to your iron stillness
though you still call
come and sing with me
take hold of me and ring
for do not touch does not apply
a less naked shade might conceal
your song more to their liking
but winter is my friend
i move in that barrenness
toward slivers of cold sunlight
cutting cross your name
for chris 2004
i am chris now
my hands drag fraying rope
and the tolling sprints
over brittle grass acres
to fill their ears
with rebellion’s sound
a triumphal siren that
drowns protestant screams
if i took a rational
only-fools-think-people-rise-from-the-dead
position
if there had been objective witnesses of the
disinterested-in-the-deadness-or-aliveness-of-the-party-in-question
variety
if paperwork had been filed by an authority of the
professionally-certified-to-confirm-death-and-or-life-remaining
type
like for Jarod who
hangs an official certificate
written by a paramedic
above his desk
a souvenir of his resurrection
from a three minute absence and a death cheated
to have been gone three days and
then at supper sunday evening
would mean he’d have killed death and
taken from it keys to (dare i)
eternal life
that is a hope far too great
for the rational
only-fools-think-people-rise-from-the-dead mind
are you
abandoned abused bitter
broken depressed desperate
gay lonely poor
self-loathing spiteful
tragic troubled
yearning for change
discontent dejected
rejected injected
insane (though only a little)
egotistical egomaniacal
pyromaniacal nymphomaniacal
or otherwise sex-obsessed
abhorred by
culture church family
or struggling to function
in society at large
if so
send in a lifetime’s expression
of inexpressibles and wording wordlessness
send in your soul carved
black blue red and
bringing life to sheets of dead tree
and languish on poet
(happy people and lumberjacks need not apply)
Kitchen’s
Ambrosial
Refreshment
Ever
Needed
Bellies
Languish
Amid
Cookie
Yearnings
Silken white buries
A darkness we want hidden
Come snow, clean our world
Each fragile snowflake
Plots to pile its beauty’s weight
‘Til I surrender
Acrid and salty
I remember mother’s words
Don’t eat yellow snow